don't be dull, be fannish

My mom's 70 today. And we ended up having a row in the middle of a supermarket. Because I forgot that we had guests coming on Saturday. That's it. I simply forgot. I was so focused on getting everything we usually buy when we go shopping, that I forgot. And she literally told me, "You congratulated me this morning, yes, but you don't want me to have a nice party, one in 70 years!" And I just... stared at her. Because apparently, I was "looking at her wrong" when she told me a few days ago that she wanted to make refreshments - all I did was suggest we should maybe make canapés and not anything big since people will be coming in the afternoon, after lunch, so they won't be hungry anymore! - and that I didn't want her to bake anything, I wanted her to give her guests some cheap roulade - all I did was tell her that there was no need to bake a roulade since there was one at home already, if she wanted a B-day cake, I would drive her to the shop and we could get some really nice one - and she kept throwing that in my face in the middle of the supermarket. And I just... stared at her. And then I swallowed my anger - it's her B-day, for cryin' out loud! - and I told her that we could still get everything necessary for the canapés since we were still in the shop. And she snapped at me that no, now she didn't want it anymore, and she stomped off. And since then, she's been giving me the silent treatment, for hours now. Whatever I ask her, it's always "No!" and "I don't care!" And I'm just...

My head hurts and I'm tired of this shit. I got her a coughing sirup because she has a cold. I got her a B-day present I saw her admire for a long time but she never got it for herself. I got her books and I downloaded TV shows for her to watch. I got us a new bin because the old one was too heavy for her and I paid for a new roof. I repaired the door handle that broke off in her hand and I repaired the spigot that stopped working on her... and apparently, it's still not enough because I don't want her to have nice things. I'm tired of maintaining peace.

For cryin' out loud! I simply forgot! That's all!

I went to the dentist today and drove my mom to her doctor appointment and did my taxes and then my cousin came around to tell me that my aunt died of a stroke, too. We weren't really close, I haven't talked to her in months and months, still, it took me by surprise. And now I feel completely drained...

But at least Leonadrdo DiCaprio finally won his Oscar and I finished Agatha Christie's "Taken by the Flood", so there's that... I think I'll now continue listen to an audiobook or read some Malec fics. Or something.

2000 - 2014

Rex suffered a stroke today. He has been sick and in pain for some time now and this was the end. We had to put him down. I stayed with him till he fell asleep so that he would know he was not alone. RIP, Rex.

Yesterday, I spent the whole afternoon trying to set up my wireless router. In vain. In the end, dinofly figured out that my router's IP was the same as my provider's router's IP, so basically, the thing was trying to connect to itself. And that's why it didn't work. We had to find a way around that. In the end we did. But by then, it was 11 pm! *head/desk* That's where my whole day went. And why did I need a wireless?

I ordered a tablet for my mom, Prestigio Multipad. Not a big thing, just 8", but for mom's needs just perfect. She just wants to read ebooks or watch things on it, maybe browse the net a bit. Nothing heavy. First, I will have to learn how to use it myself, then teach her. Fun times :)

In memory of family and friends who have lost the battle with cancer; and in support of the ones who continue to conquer it! Post this on your LJ if you know someone who has or had cancer. 93% won't copy and paste this. Will you?

For my dad, Bernard N. 1945-2001