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Battle Creek 8-13
Jun. 26th, 2015 12:02 amOMG, Russ’ expression when he realized what Milt was about to do in the last episode of the series. When Milt pulled the magazine out of the gun and left only the one bullet in the chamber... you could see the moment Russ realized what was going to happen.
And the whole episode, the beginning, when Milt was sitting in his car, crying. You realized how lonely, how depressed he was, so much so that he literally punished himself with rigorous, neck-breaking training exercise. And at the end, when told the kid’s dad that if it could bring the boy back, he would put a bullet through his brain immediately - you could see that he had thought about it, a lot, because this was no fleeting thought, not something he came up with on the spot. I think he actually thought of killing himself, of ending it, but he decided that that would be the easy way out, he decided that worse punishment would be living with this guilt, day after day, and it was killing him slowly, because the cracks in his facade kept showing more and more frequently - the broken phones, his forced cheer...
And then there was Russ, his realization of what he had been doing to Milt these last months, when he heard Milt talking about how everybody was treating him, how everybody hated him, how everybody wanted to get rid of him, just because he insisted on doing everything by the book because he couldn’t live with what happened in LA. You saw the moment Russ realized that that was basically him, too, that he hated on Milt for no reason at all, and he realized how much it was hurting Milt, he just didn’t see it.
God, the finale was amazing. I’m glad that it tied up all the loose ends. I would’ve preferred if the show had continued, but it was a fantastic finale, that’s true.
And the whole episode, the beginning, when Milt was sitting in his car, crying. You realized how lonely, how depressed he was, so much so that he literally punished himself with rigorous, neck-breaking training exercise. And at the end, when told the kid’s dad that if it could bring the boy back, he would put a bullet through his brain immediately - you could see that he had thought about it, a lot, because this was no fleeting thought, not something he came up with on the spot. I think he actually thought of killing himself, of ending it, but he decided that that would be the easy way out, he decided that worse punishment would be living with this guilt, day after day, and it was killing him slowly, because the cracks in his facade kept showing more and more frequently - the broken phones, his forced cheer...
And then there was Russ, his realization of what he had been doing to Milt these last months, when he heard Milt talking about how everybody was treating him, how everybody hated him, how everybody wanted to get rid of him, just because he insisted on doing everything by the book because he couldn’t live with what happened in LA. You saw the moment Russ realized that that was basically him, too, that he hated on Milt for no reason at all, and he realized how much it was hurting Milt, he just didn’t see it.
God, the finale was amazing. I’m glad that it tied up all the loose ends. I would’ve preferred if the show had continued, but it was a fantastic finale, that’s true.
